Thursday, October 7, 2010

Happiness Inspires Hope

Wow. Where to start with my week at Give Kids the World. God put together the perfect team. Our job was to be joyful and I learned that through being happy it gave them hope. It was the most draining trip emotionally and physically. At first I thought the trip was going to be emotionally draining because of hearing the stories and of what I saw but it wasnt that at all. I feel like I gave all of myself, everything was about the families and the kids. Completley had to take yourself out of the picture. I realized that is what Jesus did for us, He gave His all so we could have joy and have a hope of spending eternity with Him.

The first morning I was nervous and I didnt know what to expect. My job was working in the gingerbread house which is the place where the families eat. I had the job of carrying their trays to the table. Let me tell you they didnt expect it and their faces lit up when you served them. I had the best job, I was able to talk with the families and just get to know them. Many of the kids didnt look sick in fact it was hard to even tell who the sick child was in the family, but then there were many who looked very sick and it was hard but I tried my best to look at them through God's eyes. While serving donuts later on in the morning a mom asked Mckenna and I come over to her table and all she wanted was to tell us the story of her son. Her son was diagnosed with lymphoma disease. The doctors told them that he had two weeks to live and they had the choice of letting him go or try to do an aggressive treatment and had the possibility of dying in the process. They choose the aggressive treatment and it worked, he was healed. It has been a year and a half and he is doing great.

I have many stories and memories I can tell. I could talk for hours on how magical this place is. In one of my previous posts I talked about how we werent allowed to talk about God publicly. I am certain that God's voice was heard this week and it was loud. In the chapel there are journals where families, volunteers and staff could pray and write. I went through both of the journals and read every entry. It was hard to read them but at the same time it was very uplifting. Many parents expressed that they had lost all faith in God when their child became sick but they said that being able to go to Give Kids the World seeing their child happy and being able to relax restored their faith. Give Kids the World Village is God's place. One prayer that touched me was written by a 10 year old girl named Olivia and she wrote how thankful she was for God healing her. She said "thanks to you Jesus Im fine now, im more than fine, Im great. I cant wait to spend eternity with you."

One of my favorite moments was the last night when I was working the big splash bash I meet a 10 year old boy named Brody from Austrailia. Im not sure what his illness was but that didnt matter. All he wanted to do was dance. He grabbed my hands and we started dancing. He even taught me some new dance moves. He had the biggest smile that melted my heart.

Writing this was hard but also easy at the same time. It was hard because I long to be with those kids and the families. It was easy because it was the best week and I feel in love with that place. If its God's will, I hope to return many times there.

"Stand up and praise the LORD your God, who is from everlasting to everlasting. "Blessed be your glorious name, and may it be exalted above all blessing and praise. You alone are the LORD. You made the heavens, even the highest heavens, and all their starry host, the earth and all that is on it, the seas and all that is in them. You give life to everything, and the multitudes of heaven worship you." -Nehemiah 9:5b-6

Monday, September 27, 2010

1 Day

Wednesday morning I make my way down to Flordia, right outside of Orlando for a mission trip to Give Kids The World. It is part of the Make a Wish Foundation and is a huge resort for Kids who have a life-threatening illness.I cannot wait to be down there. I know going into this trip that it is going to be emotionally draining but that isnt my biggest worry or obstacle that I will be facing. While we are down there we arent allowed to speak about God unless someone brings it up first. When they first told us that, it was something really hard to understand. I am so used to going to Mexico or wherever and the whole point of the trip is to spread the name of God. Trying to process this through my mind I knew I had to go straight to God with this. God filled my mind with the perfect thoughts and mind set of going into this.
Abba Father,
I pray for the trip down to Give Kids the World, despite the fact that we cant speak of you, your name is still able to be heard! May we love those kids with your love Father. Open my eyes to the things unseen. Even though some of the people may not know you and thats hard for us to process, God let me know that you know what you are doing and the best thing we can do is pray because prayer changes things. Make me strong God, let your joy flow out of me, in hopes of letting people see you. Just because we cant speak of you, that doesnt make you unpresent. You are always with me. I pray that I seek out your strength and your love. You have put each of us on this team for a reason and im so excited about what you are going to do. Prepare our hearts Oh Lord...Let me go unafraid...

"You are a letter from Chirst..written not with ink but with the spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts." -2 Corinthians 3:3

Friday, July 23, 2010

You have the chance to fly

Francis Chan quotes in his book Forgotten God, "I want to live so that I am truly submitted to the spirits leading on a daily basis. I dont want to keep crawling when I have the chance to fly." I feel like we put too much trust in people and then when something goes wrong you end up getting hurt. Many people will let you down and disappoint you but your Savior never will. So shouldnt that encourage us to fall in love with God? The thought of heaven seems so far away so we let ourselves live the lifes we want and we'll worry about God later. The kingdom is here; it is now. Why dont we live like it? If your best freind was being talked about behind their back and you had the oppurtunity to protect their name wouldnt you? Why isnt it like that with the name of Christ? We go and watch movies, listen to music and do things that arent lifting up the name of Jesus. We do the very things that put Him on the cross. I feel like when you are completly in love with God it would become so natural to you that you would want to do everything to protect and hold up the name of Jesus. So hear is my question: Why would you crawl when you have the chance to fly?

"Oh Great God, be glorified. Our lives laid down yours magnified. Oh great God, be lifted high. There is none like You. Jesus, Savior, God's own Son. Risen, Reigning, Lord. Sustainer of the universe. By the power of Your Word. And when we see Your matchless face, in speechless awe we'll stand. And there we'll bow with ...grateful hearts. Unto the great I Am."

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Holy Spirit Come

"And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever—the Spirit of truth." -John 14:17-18
Whenever weget baptized we are baptized in the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I feel like too often me miss or dont even recongnize the Holy Spirit within us. As Francis Chan says in his book Forgotten God, "I believe this missing something is actually a missing someone namely the Holy Spirit. Without Him people operate in their own strength and only accomplish human size results." Knowing that the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead lives in me; Shouldnt that change or affect the way I live? I would hope that you could tell my life apart from a non-believers. Whenever I die I dont want people questioning if I was a follower of Christ, I want it to be evident in my life. I think Francis Chan's words this thought just beautifully. "I dont want my life to be explainable with the Holy Spirit. I want people to look at my life and know that I couldn't be doing this by my own power. I want to live in such a way that I am desperate for him to come through. That if he doesnt come through; Im screwed.". "When I am living in a way that requires me to depend on the Holy Spirit people respond by praising my Father in Heaven." Last night I could feel the Power of the Holy Spirit. We went to different stations and had quiet time with God. In one of the stations it was suggested to send a text to someone to encourage them. Usually, I would have choosen one of my best friends and wouldn't have really thought about anyone else. I told God, I wanted it to be your time, speak through me. God moved me to send a text to someone who would have probably been at the end of list. But I knew I needed to do it. Then we were told to write a letter to someone. The name of the person who God wanted me to write to immediately popped onto my head. I got my paper, not completley sure if what to say. But God was making my pen move to words I could have never thought of. they were completley HIS. He knew what this person needed to hear. In this moment I have never felt the Holy spirit so present in my life. This summer God has taught and showed me a lot about His love and at that moment an overwhelming feeling of his love for me and for his children came over me. I just wanted to just cry at how beautiful His love for us is. Just wow. His love is alive and is so beautiful. "No matter where you live and what your days look like; you have the choice each day to depend on yourself to live safely, to try to control your life or you can live as you were created to live as a temple of the Holy Spirit of God, as a person dependent on Him;desperate for God to show up and make a difference. When you begin living a life characterized by walking with the spirit, that is when people will begin to not look to you but to our Father in heaven and give Him praise." -Francis Chan. Abba God, I pray that I am always aware of the Holy Spirit and what He is doing around and in me. Give me the strength oh God, to be everything that I'm called to be. I pray that my life would me different because the Holy Spirit is within me. I'm all yours God, lead me to what our want me to do. Never stop pulling me to you. Draw me deeper Lord...

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Silent

This week my goal has been to try to be silent before God and just sit at His throne and let Him speak to me. I seem to always have a lot to say to God but I hardly ever let Him do the talking. Let me tell you, God has a LOT to say and I encourage you to listen. He was countless promsises and words that He wants to tell His children."Speak God. I'm your servant. Im ready to listen." -1 Samuel 3:9b
"Sometimes the best words we can speak is no words at all. Standing in the silence letting God speak to you, He wants your heart. So if you have no words to speak, Then sit in HIS silence and let HIM speak. It's in the quietness of our hearts when we just stand before HIM amazed. Thats when we can hear Him speak to us." -Jason Upton
God has used everything that I have come in contact with this week as a way to speak to me. Such as the t.v. I randomly recorded Joel Osteen and watched it and His lesson was exactly what I needed to hear. Through conversations with friends God is preparing my heart for Mexico. God has been showing me some awesome things from His word.
"May the Lord lead your heart into a full unerstanding and expression of the love of God and the patient endurance that comes from Christ." -2 Thessalonians 3:5
"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life." -Psalm 139:23-24

This is my prayer:
Abba God, I pray that I leave myself here on Friday. I want it to be all of you. Move me out of the way and hide me behind the cross. God Im going to be honest im slighty nervous and scared since we havent done much to plan and we are just going down there and going where you lead us. But if you are with me God then Whom then shall I fear? Knowing that you are the same yesterday, today, and forever lets me know that I can trust you fully. If there is anything that is in my heart that isnt of you God, I pray that you get rid of it. May every word that comes from my mouth bring honor to your name. I'm all yours God. Use me, and lead me to where you want me to go. Instead of Praying God be with me, I pray that I am with you God and that I walk hand and hand with you forever.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

1 John 4- God's Love and Ours

Thoughts having been flowing through my head constantly after reading through 1 John 4. Its hard to translate all of my thoughts onto paper or in this case the computer. I'm sitting here with all 3 of my bibles opened (NIV, NLT, and MSG) to try to see what God is really trying to say. I have decided that I like the New Living Translation the best so thats what I will be quoting.

"But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world." vs. 4
The enemy can slap you and persecute you but God has already won the ultimate victory. HE has overcome the world and HE never stops fighting for us.
"But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love.
God showed how much he loved us by sending his one and only Son into the world so that we might have eternal life through him. This is real love—not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins." vs. 8-10
"We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in his love. God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them. And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect. So we will not be afraid on the day of judgment, but we can face him with confidence because we live like Jesus here in this world.Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love.We love each other because he loved us first." vs. 16-18

Loving God includes loving people. You got to love both. If I love God but not HIS children then im only fooling myself. No, my love will never be perfect but HIS love is. HE is the complete expression of love. HIS love is the greatest type of Love. Here is something I wrote this past fall on how other people view God's love.
HIS Love
HIS Love is inseparable
HIS Love is unconditional
HIS Love is forgiving
HIS Love is perfect in every way
HIS Love is the kind of thing that makes the worst days have the best endings
HIS Love is powerful
HIS Love is all forgiving
HIS Love is unfailing
HIS Love is infinite
HIS Love is hope
HIS Love is selfless
HIS Love is the indescribable feeling of the holy spirit inside you
HIS Love is greater than any love
HIS Love is underestimated
HIS Love is what come around when I am away and brings me back
HIS Love is merciful
HIS Love is in us
HIS Love is full of grace
HIS Love is light in darkness
HIS Love is unending
HIS Love is unwavering
HIS Love is wonderful
HIS Love is unconditional care
HIS Love is devotion
HIS Love is amazing
HIS Love is Lavished on us
HIS Love is timeless
HIS Love is poured out into us
HIS Love completes me
HIS Love gives me peace
HIS Love was shown for us when he had HIS son die on the cross for our sins
HIS Love endures forever
HIS Love reassures me that HE has big and mighty plans
HIS Love drives out fear
HIS Love is what connect us all

I want to love God to the point that I eventually forget about myself. I want to loose myself in loving my God. May people fall in love with God through me.

"I cannot help thinking that the best way of knowing God is to love many things. Love this friend, this person, this tihng, whatever you like, and you will be on the right road to understanding HIM better." _Vincent Van Gogh

"Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that." -Ephesians 5:2 (MSG)

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Guiding Principle

My friend had sent me a message that said "What is a guiding principle that you apply in your life everyday? Either a verse, attitude, concept, prayer, or lesson learned." I had to sit there for a second and think about it. What is my main goal for every day?
My favorite verse is Zephaniah 3:17 and 1 Peter 4:19 and everyday I try to take what these verses are telling me and live them out.
"The LORD your God is with you,
HE is mighty to save.
HE will take great delight in you,
HE will quiet you with his love,
HE will rejoice over you with singing."
-Zephaniah 3:17
"So if you are suffering in a manner that pleases God, keep on doing what is right, and trust your lives to the God who created you, for he will never fail you."
-1 Peter 4:19

"The bible teaches us to be consumed with Christ and to faithfully live out His words. The holy Spirit stirs in us a joy and peace when we are fixated on Jesus, living by faith, and focused on the life to come." -Francis Chan, Crazy Love
I ask myself "How can I be God to somebody today?" I try to focus on Heaven and always think of my eternal Home. This year I am setting my mind on 4 things:
Striving for Home, Dreaming of Home, Setting my mind on Home, and Seeking Home. This past school year I have learned that the only thing that matters is falling in love with my Savior, Creator. I want to love God to the point that I eventually forget about myself. I dont want to just love God I want to be obssessed with Him. "God wants us to be open with Him... God desires true intimacy with each of us, and that comes only when we trust Him enough to be fully transparent and vulnerable." -Francis Chan, Crazy Love. The only possible way I can do that is being so real with God so He can be real with me. I have to love the people who dont love me back.
"Christian, you are not a citizen of this world trying to ge tot heaven, you are a citizen of Heaven trying to get thru this world."

This is my prayer:
Sustainer, The Great I am,
I want to love those who hate me and who can never love me back. God, this year in Mexico, bring me closer to you, whatever it takes Lord. Your glorious will be done. God, make me aware of oppurtunities around me and connect me with the poor in some way or antoher. I want to be more concerned with obeying you than doing what is expected or following the status quo. I want to take joy in loving you and loving others. God, dont make me comfortable, push me into places where I would be in trouble if you didnt show up. Abba, Lead me to where you want me to go and what you want me to do. Amen

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Forgotten God

I feel like God has been speaking to me lately. He has put a lot on my mind. I am reading the book Forgotten God by Francis Chan and that has really got me to thinking (whatever I quote is by him.) So here I am writing this.
God doesnt call us to be comfortable in our Christian walk and/or faith. "God doesnt call me here so I could settle and live my life in comfort and in superficial peace." I think we shouldnt ever be satisfied with our own realtionship with God, because there is always more room to grow spiritually. We need to keep chasing after being like God until we achieve it. I feel like as the world we are constantly wanting to satisfy others. Why dont we want to constantly satisfy God? " I want to live so that I am full submitted to the spirit's leading on a daily basis. I dont want to keep crawling when I have the ability to fly." When is church going to stop being a popularity contest and it being a place where we can kneel before the King at HIS throne? We have to break the routined practiced faith of going to church and it not doing anything and it being like well I went to church I'm good. Im going to go ahead and say that we all need God but how often do I want God and want Him in everything I do? What if we said the Lord is my shepherd and He is all I want. "Let's pray that God would empower us so radically so that we would get NO glory." I want it to be ALL OF HIM and absolutley none of me. I want to be hidden behind the cross, so when people see me they see Christ. "In all all things showing yourself to be a pattern of good works;..[so that] an opponent [may have] nothing evil to say about you." -Titus 2:7-8 The world is constantly shouting at us [christians] to stop and sadly I feel like we play it safe now.The voice of the Lord will always be louder than the world's . Its just a matter of whose we choose to listen to. Because we dont truly love God and others we have ruined the name of God. We have totally messed up what this world was intended to be like. Look around you. What have we done? That's why I contstantly crave to be in Mexico, not just because I have a love for the people and their great faith but because I can escape from the worldly things and it just be me and God. We must start giving God the glory He deserves. Jesus very easliy could have backed out and not died for our sins. But he did and decided he would rather die for us than leave us in this dark world alone. HE is a sutainer and HE is victorious and we dont nearly give him the credit HE deserves. "Let's focus on believing the promises given to us by God, on submitting to him the fears we have and on surrendering ourselves fully to the work and will of God the Holy Spirit."