Priority

You know what I have been struggling with lately? To me it seems kinda weird but the more I have talked with people it seems to be pretty common and its something we dont talk about often.
I have been getting so envious of others when I am not in their top group of friends but they are in mine. Does that make sense? Such as with certain friends they are a priority in my life but I'm not in theirs. Im going to be completely honest it really hurts me. Sometimes I feel like I pour so much of myself into friendships but dont hardly get anything in return. It has been such a burden to me. I am tired of it. Its so heavy. And I will admit sometimes its the other way around for me. I dont appreciate enough of my friends.


I heard God say this to me:
"Whoa. Whoa. Mallory, Think about me.


This is the amazing thing about God. When He isnt a priority in my life, I am a priority in HIS eyes. He does not stop pursing me and loving me. He keeps giving of himself to me even though I dont acknowledge it or thank Him. Somehow we get the thought in our head that God owes us something when he doesnt owe us anything. We dont deserve it. Jesus already paid the ultimate price.


I want to make sure Christ is always the top priority in my life. Not giving half of me but ALL. Okay Lord, you can have me....even the deepest depths of my hearts. Its all yours.


So since I am suppose to be a complete reflection of Christ I will continue to pour myself into these type of friendships. Because Christ does the same for me.

I also have been lovin the Song King Of All Days by Hillsong--

In your surrender

As you lay down your life

You took up a sinners cross

And your live rescued mine

In this redemption

Love and mercy display

Lifting my eyes to see

That your truth never fails

Lord of the heavens

King of all days

Without you my world slips away

Redeemed by your mercy

Consumed by your grace

Now I live for you

I'm found in the arms of love

Your love it has saved my soul

I'll run to your arms of love

Your life's gonna lead me home

Glorious savior

In your light I am free

If things of this world will fail

Still you're all that I need

Lord of the heavens

King of all days

Without you my world slips away

Redeemed by your mercy

Consumed by your grace

Now I live for you

I'm found in the arms of love

Your love it has saved my soul

I'll run to your arms of love

Your life's gonna lead me home

(And) at your cross

I lay my burden

At your feet

Where your love covers

All I've done

Now I walk with you lord

I'm found in the arms of love

For your love it has saved my soul

I'll run to your arms of love

Your life's gonna lead me home

Time to be Bold

Between the radio going and dazing off in my own world it is so easy to take a wrong turn without recognizing it. I think it is time that I hit my brakes, slow down and pull to the side and make sure I am on the right path.

This past week the Holy Spirit has convicted me. I am not nearly as Bold for Christ as I should be. It's so easy to talk to my core group of friends about God and about their spiritual lives and while I am SO thankful for that and it's a huge blessing- I must do more to spread Christ. I'm going to be completely honest I only talk about God on a deep level with my core group of friends because I am scared of how others will respond. I don't want to step on others toes or offend them. Yes, I truly believe that we should lead by example- most of the time actions do speak louder than words.

But hear this: God requires more. Much more.

We have been given the task to carry the name of Jesus. I admit often times I let Him down and instead of lifting Him up higher and higher I drag Him around as if it's a burden. As Jesus says in Matthew 11:30 "the burden I give you is LIGHT!" We are so blessed that the creator of the Universe chooses to call us His children!

"It is no shame to suffer for being a Christian. Praise God for the privilege of being called his name!" -1 Peter 4:16.

I have missed sharing the good news of Christ with so many people. This week I have been so disgusted with the ways of sin and I become disappointed in myself for not looking out for their best interest and not speaking Christ into their lives. I am challenging myself to get out of my comfort zone and seek out the lost people. To be BOLD in asking about their spiritually life and about God. There are so many people that are in great need of a Savior and I cant hold back any longer. So I am turning my car around and going back to get the people I simply just waved at or ignored and picking them up on the bandwagon of Christ.


I am saying Yes, to you Lord, to wherever you lead me. I am completely yours.